最近，搭地鐵時， 縂想找位子。坐下來時，心裏卻常希望不會見到大肚，老人家，或小孩。 taking me too long to type chinese. when there's people walking leisurely in front of me, i would just be hoping that the person could speed up and not cause me to miss my train. why can't people stay on the right if they know they are going to be slow? arghh...
i get annoyed when people are talking too loudly on the train...from all demographics. it really affects my reading. but after work, i wish i could have some quiet time of my own. i don't know why we always have to end up discussing about how much i have to eat or whether i have had sufficient intake of vitamin c for the day. just really a little ridiculous and excessive. i guess i am semi independent (haha...yea, still dependent on some!) i also seem to be avoiding some things....trying to fight for my own time. idk, there's always so much to do.... haven't...not...yet...done!

but but whattt am i thinking? i don't know ?! sometimes, argh... where is the love that should be flowing through??

anyways, i had a conversation with someone and i was talking about how i like hong kong but think that it is a city with lots of problems. the extreme and unequal distribution of wealth, and the response of the government who is adamant in supporting the wealthy to become wealthier and the poor to become poorer is an issue that i am trying to understand. her response was interestingly and maybe typical of what the former class would say. that people who voice out these issues and protest are or are fighting for people who do not work hard enough, or seek opportunities to create wealth and an open opportunities economy. it is inevitable that there will be people left behind. it is just that these people cannot accept the fact.
i did not agree but i did say that perhaps it is because of Christianity that i see things different from others like her. Actually, it might be so but maybe not. I am still not well informed in this but i should think more seriously about it if i have time.

lately, there's also something that i am not too happy about. the truth is, i feel annoyed that my "sacrifices" or efforts are not reaping any results. of course, i am sad for other reasons too.

May I always remember that God is love and God knows best.