Monday, October 27, 2008

a depressing point in life....

is the application for uni
i'm not artsy, not sciencey, not mathy, not anything....
i have not discovered what God put me on earth for, i think it's going to be a long journey
i was thinking of doing architecture, but i really don't know...it's going to be so competitive, and i don't know if i'll really enjoy slogging through my whole adult life for a somewhat measely pay
n i'm not sure if i can ever sell my idea...i had a presentation a while ago, a small one with 2 audience and they both commented that my voice was a little sof and that i have a weak presence
well, i think it's probably going to stay that way, except when i'm at home and to my really close friends
i'm also kindof thinking of doing anthropology, but i still have to find out more about it....it's quite cool coz u end up being really knowledgeable, but it might not be very practical, like i dreamed about being a curator....but it's not likely that i will become one
so far, i've no real preference except that i know i don't really want a normal, boring, office job....and i've been trying to find a profession that is meaningful, in some way....
maybe a counsellor or psychologist...but that will mean lots of studying(not sure whether i'lll want to)
another profession that amazes me is being a humanitarian worker......it's really quite noble....imagine haven't to give up all the comfiness of urban living, and going into places that lack the basics.....having to give up all the hot chocolate, the ice cream, the bagels, the clothes, the clean water, a toilet that flushes.....
i don't see how i can do that
at least not for more than a week
but then again, lots of people don't do what they want in life, they take up jobs juz to feed the family, or juz because nobody wants to do these jobs and they're juz filling up the space that nobody wants to do... so i'm not sure if it's alrite for me to consider all these little details
n btw, on a scale of 10, i'm giving loo a 2 and UT an 8 for the aesthetic environment of the campus
n an additional -3 for lthe oo coz of the geese poop

3 comments:

joanna =) said...

mmmh...praying for you ma cherie!
i know it's just so hard to decide compared to Amanda and I...and to be wanting so bad that God just reveal His plans for our lives right now, right at this moment so we can stop worrying and trust that He leads us somewhere...
but I really hope this will be a time when you'll look back and be thankful that God was by your side each step of the way, and that He was growing your faith as you learn to wait on Him :)
+oil!

Unknown said...

lol geese poop, is there a lot of geese poop in loo???

comme un cerf-volant said...

k...
dang i dislike those typos
hmmm, i guess my post was kindof funny. i'm kindof amused by it too. thanks for reviving all these long forgotten post.
don't think i can write/think like that anymore even if i wanted to.